I hate waiting…

I need a job. It has been 1 year and 7 months now since I had a job. I’m feeling like its time to give up, but I have no idea what kind of career to do now. I’m broke. I’m frusrated. I don’t really feel like I’m living my 20′s. I’m just waiting for something….anything. And to be honest, I have begun to hate waiting. If you don’t quite understand how much this sucks, read the email below from a person who interviewed me this week:

“Hi Kat,

You were very comfortable in the interview and high on my list. Really
what it came down to was the number of logo projects and business
documents you’ve produced compared with others.

That’s really it. And It was a pleasure to meet you.

Thanks again,

Matt”

See, my frustration stems from this vicious cycle I keep going around and around in, stuck on the silver metal rungs of wire just waiting for it to stop, waiting for a big rat to jump on board with me. Or it could be a small rat, I don’t really care. I just need ONE rat, ONE person running the rat race to slow down and stop for me, for a little morsel of cheese. To give me that opportunity to get experience. How can I get experience if no one will hire me? No one will hire me because I have no experience. I have no experience because no one will hire me. No one will hire me because I have no experience. It just goes around and around and around and around and…

Can’t someone just give me a chance already? I am begging you, if there are any of you actually reading this, to help me find a job. I don’t care if it’s not design. I just want to be happy. And my happiness is greatly influenced by what I spend the majority of my day doing, which would be working-if I could find work. I would appreciate any help, and thanks in advance if you have any ideas for me.

Painting in the old studio

DJ Show Flyer

Crazy guy at coffee shop!

Blurry picture…

NW23rd Studio!

Latest Logo Design!

Something I noticed…

So, since being unemployed, I have gone thru the range of emotions from disapointment and frustration, to guilt and self-pity. Finally, I have come to terms with the job market, my so called “lack of experience,” and just plain old bad karma and bad luck. I must put too much emphasis on luck and karma in my life, but there is just no other explination. Which leads me to my ultimate happiness and content with my life at this point. Afterall, I am alive!

With this new found happiness, I have reflected on my unhappiness and realized that as a person, I have changed, and I am changing. Mostly I realized that my interest are changing. What I take pride in and what I most enjoy doing are the big questions for me right now. Obviously, my family is of huge importance-as are my pets. Finding a job used to be my main goal, but now, instead of trying to find a job, my goal is to just meet people in the design industry. I haven’t really been too active at that, and I know my social skills need some sharpening up. With that, I have taken an interest in learning how to be a great conversationalist. I am going to be learning how to be excellent at networking and how to be the kind of person that an employer would want on their team. 

I am excited to be learning again without the pressure of grades and lectures and deadlines.

 

This is my journey and I have the freedom to do what I want with it!

NEWS

Hello World! I have yet to write any personal information up here, but I thought I would let everyone know what I have been up to.

To start, I have been happily unemployed for about 3 months now (the first few were not so happy so we wont mention them).

I have three huge paintings I am working on: One is the Fremont Troll, one is a seahorse, and the other is a giant cloud. They are all just experiments with my style at this point.

Also, I was sketching a lot a few months ago…but that has died down a bit since we got the internet and are able to search design sites a lot more now. I started sewing these really funky monster dolls too-they will be gifts for all the baby showers I will be going to this summer.

I have been doing tons of odd jobs at my parent’s house-anywhere from painting the house to putting in a brick patio to puppy-sitting. It has been a lot of fun to take a break from the “real” job world and just get my hands dirty. Speaking of getting my hands dirty, Matt and I grew a garden from seeds! We have peppers, dill and sweet peas. I am really enjoying gardening lately.

I am also starting to head up the AIGA dMob group as the organizer. I am super excited to have the opportunity! I met a ton of really inspiring people at the meeting this month!

Maddie! My new pup!